Weeeeeelll. This week was BUSY. Work is in full swing now. I'm, for the most part, completely trained at work. Whiiiiich means they'll be expecting more hours, more work, and less help doing so. I'm more or less okay with that, simply because I really need to start saving up for my license and a car. But boy, it's stressful. Things at school have, strangely enough, kind of mellowed out. I'm completely caught up in all of my classes, I'm on track to finish my online class early, and I'm just scooting along nicely. It feels strange, and it almost makes me anxious not having work haha. I'm always thinking I must've missed something. For now I'm just moving along, trying to balance work with everything else. It's alright for now, but I'm still excited for graduation to finally be here.
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Hmm. Well this week was productive, to say at the least. I've officially started work, as of tuesday. That was interesting, to say at the least. It's a weird, stressfully exciting experience, and I'm excited for the paycheck, but I'm not sure I'll be sticking around there. I'm going to continue looking for other jobs and for the meantime I'll stick this one out. Academically I'm comfortably floating along. I still need to do a presentation for English, but other than that things have been going fairly smoothly. The mural is coming home with me, where we'll have more space and time to work on it. I'm confident that it's going to turn out great. I'm very glad that I made the decision to get a reduced schedule, especially now that I'm working. It's nice to be able to go into work directly after school and still be out by the time dinner's done. It leaves a good amount of time for me to get homework done as well as the housework. I can feel my focus slipping, however, as prom and all the other fun senior activities approach, but I feel balanced enough to keep it under control. I'm terrified yet ready, now more than ever, to graduate. Sudden realization has struck; I'm going to graduate. I mean, it's not really a surprise, nor a realization really. There was never any doubt that I would graduate. It's just finally dawning on me, late as usual, that this is really happening. Last week we got caps and gowns. As I stood in line behind kids chattering about what they'd convinced their parents to order for them, I felt nothing less than thankful. Thankful that I have a home over my head. Thankful that my school provided me with the luxury of a cap, gown, and even a tassel. I was simply thankful for the day. I'm (trying to be) nothing but thankful nowadays, but things are still stressful. At home things have basically mellowed out. We kind of live in this weird silence, slinking around, trying to avoid each other. Here at school it's kind of the same, minus the avoidance of people. I'm on this weird steady pace, so I'm not really worried any more. I also start work soon. I've managed to get it set up where I get credit for working, which is cool, especially considering it means I'm guaranteed at least five hours a week. A paycheck is a paycheck, eh? This week was interesting. I got a call back from Taco Bell of all places, and it looks like I have an interview next week. I'm not sure I'd even like to work there but nobody else would bother to give me a call. On the bright side I finally have a functional phone (first time in like a year and a half haha), so perhaps that'll make the job-search process a bit easier. I've put in two applications just about every day since I moved here. Something's gotta give. School-wise I'm fine. I guess. I mean my grades aren't slipping or anything. I'm not necessarily behind for once, not really caught up, either. I'm just here. Barely. My focus is steadily slipping and I'm working on that. There's always something to fix. Perhaps the break will refresh me enough to make it to the next relieved sigh. On a slightly less bright note, I got cancelled on! By! My! Only! Friend! YES!!! Just what I wanted :)))))) Yeah. I was trying to make my last high school spring break a good one. I've never done anything on spring break, ever. So I had really high hopes for this one. Buuuuuuuut Destry decided to make plans with his other friend the exact. same. days. we were supposed to take a trip to Grand Rapids for a weekend. Not like I'd been planning this for months or anything :)))))))) It's basically a friggin slap in the face that bluntly says "I don't care about your feelings, I'm just gonna do what I want!!!" I hate people. Trying real hard to keep positive vibes and happy thoughts but boooooy oh boy I wanna slap some people. This week was weiiiirrrd. Where to begin? Well, for starters I have a completely new schedule now. I needed to be able to work afternoons and evenings, and school was starting to stress me out because of the simple fact that it takes up a large majority of my day. Not that I don't like school, I definitely do. But because of situation it's very important that I find a job. So I spoke to Mr. Platte as well as Mrs. Wilson, and since I have all of my necessary credits, they set it up to where I'm only here until noon. That was a huge sigh of relief for me, and I feel as though new doors have been opened for me. I'm trying to maintain hopefulness. Aside from that, I've actually had no problem getting caught up from last week. I'm actually ahead in some classes, which is neat. The new schedule has been so beneficial for me already, and it's merely the first week. I'm very happy about that. Things at home are still a bit strange. Heh, not sure I like calling it home either. I'm trying to settle in and be okay, but it's definitely going to be a struggle. We're living in a freezing basement with a drunken 54 year old who requires more attention than my infant brother. I feel as though I've taken a huge step back. But like arrows, perhaps my string needs to be pulled thin in order to shoot me forward. For now I'll suffer quietly and focus solely on the small things that bring me joy. I can do this. This week was interesting, I suppose. I only managed to get to school the very first day, and, unfortunately, I had to miss the rest. That was preeeeetty harsh considering it was literally the first week of the last trimester of my high school career. Took a bit of a beating. Neil and I finally kicked ourselves into high gear and started packing things up. From that point on everything quickly spiraled. We managed to get everything out of the house within three days. And since our roommate is staying in the house, he called his new roommates up. Apparently he thought it'd be okay to simply move all of their belongings into the house, despite the fact that we weren't even finished packing, and our lease isn't technically up until the 31st. I'm still beyond pissed about it. That set aside, my absences took a toll on my grades, and academically I took a bit of a punch. What's new though? At this point I'm used to having to make up work. I hate it, but I'd rather roll with the punches than complain constantly. I forgot I had a math class this trimester, which is completely strange to me. I haven't had to take a math class in over a year. Luckily, I didn't really have a hard time getting the work done in there. I'm looking into maybe switching my classes around to better suit my schedule. As per usual, I'm off to a bit of a rocky start. |
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