Jesus, where to begin. Well this week has been a friggin rollercoaster. Seems to be a common trait in my life heh heh. But yeah. Socially speaking I've never been so angry with people. I don't understand why people act the way they do, and despite thinking otherwise, I don't care to. I've lost so much faith in humanity. Academically speaking, however, I'm doing great. I've managed to keep all A's, which means a lot to me not only because it's the first time ever that I've been able to do so, but also because I'm finally able to see my true potential without it being clouded by my home life. I'm proving to myself and everyone else along the way just what I'm capable of, and it feels great. I plan to keep it that way and finish strong no matter what life throws at me. I've got this. I took a mental health day yesterday in hopes of regaining some of my self control. I got a lot of my school work done that I've been meaning to get to, so that was a wonderful feeling. Buuuuuuut it didn't actually help my mental health all that much. I came back to school today and small things that generally wouldn't bother me have drove me nuts. I almost got into a fight with some kid I don't even know simply because he's been messing with my friends. I cannot stand when people walk all over others for their own personal gain. Why can't we all just have good vibes? I don't get it.
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Oh, boy. Where to begin? This week was wonderful. After having a week and a half off of school I was able to take a much needed mental break. I worked through a lot of problems that had been building up, and despite my plentiful doubts I started the New Year on a much, much brighter note. Educationally speaking I feel I'm doing a bit better as well. I was extremely stressed about our "I Believe' project before the break. I wasn't entirely confident in my ability to share it with the rest of the class, mostly because it was the first time I'd willingly shared my life story with my peers. Plus the original deadline seemed to be racing toward me and I felt I had no time to accomplish anything at all. But after setting aside time over break and working harder to hold my focus I was able to get quite a bit of work done. That is, until the school computer decided not to save any of it. Guess you could say I was a bit upset. Luckily I have the resources at home to work on it (which is a new thing I'm working on getting used to; I actually have everything I need for once!) and I was able to get it done. I'm finally allowing myself to be happy, and I'm proud. I'm confident things are looking up for me, and I'm ready to do what I need to make that happen and be successful on my own terms. |