God, this week was rough. We had a snow day on Monday, and that threw me off completely. This week I've noticed that I'm an extremely obsessive person. Yes, it definitely has it's perks. It's like extreme perfectionism for me. But it's also causing a lot of problems. I can't seem to get things done in a timely manor becuase I'm obsessing over details. Before this week I'd never had reason to notice the patterns, and I think I might talk to Mrs. Mielke about that as well. The thought of me having OCD on top of my other problems is both terrifying and relieving all at once. Anyways, yeah, the snow day threw me off. I knew that I'd be missing Wednesday, but after the long weekend I (compulsively) just decided to take Tuesday off to help my boyfriend with some errands before we had to go out of town. That was stupid. I had originally planned on using the day to get my schoolwork for Wednesday from my teachers, but instead I just screwed myself over and ended up with two days worth of work, on top of the assignment I forgot last week. I also noticed that the more I avoid my problems at school, the more I avoid the ones at home. The more I avoid, the more my depression acts up, and that's when everything starts to feel like it's crumbling. Even when I constantly remind myself that it's not. Usually I can recognize the signs of a bad week/day/time beforehand, but it's hardest to pull myself up and dust myself off when I've been laying in the mud for so long. I just need to learn to stay out of the pig pen.
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